Kelly Rae's done it again. Check out her guest spot. What struck me most was this:
What I'm learning this week while i navigate these waters is this: that we are 100% allowed to stop - that we won't be forgotten if we do. that our overwhelm is a whisper worth listening to. that our dreams can absolutely change shape and our everyday lives/balance/routine can change accordingly. that we must speak up about our feelings of defeat/burnout/overwhelm, because we're not alone. and most importantly, that its our vulnerabilities that connect us and that we can soar, always soar on the brightness of being alive.
I'm always a little afraid to come here and say it all usually censoring a lot of real stuff. I mean I'm putting out there for so many strangers and (even more scary) people I know to glance over my words and judge. Yep I said it. And though I am still on my way to not giving a shit, most of the time I do.
But with a little power from a powerful little sprite I've never met here goes: I'm freaking tired. I hate making lattes and cleaning drains and I really could care less about little johnny's broken arm and how it got all sewed up. Most of all I hate that I have to do this and miss out on the zoo, a bike ride, and cooking up a fantastic meal with my favorite sous chef. i get it. I'm lucky, we are blessed and fortunate and all that shit, but man I'm tired.
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Oh honey. I feel your pain. Hold on, I usually get pretty brilliant when I am deliriously tired. Somethings coming.
4 am jobs suck - until the work/life merry-go-round stops spinning so fast it's all about quality, not quantity with the life part. Hang in there, baby!!
Thanks for saying what I've been thinking about the relationship between truth and public viewing. You're the best.
I know exactly what you're talking about.
In the spirit of "just stopping," this afternoon while my girls are napping, instead of cleaning both bathrooms like I usually do on Thursdays and which I did not have time to do this a.m. due to company over and house repairs going on, I am sitting on the patio in the brilliant sunshine enjoying the most stunning early-summer day imagainable. Living in the moment, for ONCE! The bathrooms can wait!
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